college... where did you go?

Oh no! Oops! I skipped a month! Not that it was my goal to post at least once every month.., but here I am again!

It was quite the hectic summer, and now that school started a couple of weeks ago, it has been continually hectic! I seriously cannot believe it's my last year at CSUN. Though the Lord has been gracious enough to allow me to finish in 4 years, I feel like I'm still trying to come to terms with finishing college, and applying to grad school soon. And if all goes as planned, in a year, I may be living on my own far away from home (well not THAT far depending on what you think is far, but nonetheless far to me!), and starting a new chapter in my life. Such a crazy thought.

I guess I was just thinking about how college has managed to come and go so quickly, and started thinking about how much has happened and how much has changed since I entered into college. There were fun times, crazy times, and definitely many trials and challenges. Though I never moved away for college or lived in a dorm like I always hoped I would, the Lord has definitely taught me much and grew me much the past 3 years. I am no longer the SUPER awkward loner kid who thought she knew a lot about God and the gospel. I've met so many people, gained many friends, still a bit awkward, but definitely super humbled by how much I still don't know about God and the gospel.

I don't know why I'm writing about this now. I've just only begun my 4th and final year of college! Maybe I've just been kind of freaking out a little bit about the future (applying to grad school, and thinking about alternative solutions if I don't get accepted). Maybe I just need to be reminded again of the Lord's sovereignty and faithfulness, especially to His own. I don't want to forget about God, and get wrapped up in the craziness of school and the things after. I just need more humility... more realizing of His grace and sovereignty in my life...

Haha, I hope I don't get senioritis! I need to finish out strong this year! Most importantly, I must finish college strong in the Lord so that when the next stage of life comes, I will not be swayed, but continue to be humbled and depend even more on the Lord.

Sorry for all the random thoughts (kind of)! I wanted to write about something else, but I guess this just kind of came out.

If you bothered reading this, thanks for reading! hahah...