Time Flies.

It's been a while since I posted, but..

Happy (belated) New Year!!

First post of 2012. Woohoo!

I can't believe it's been 7 months since I graduated college. Time sure flies! Post-college life sure isn't a walk in the park (though I must admit, I do love not having to study!), but the Lord is faithful :)

Life is hard, but I am sure glad that I have Christ! God has been teaching me so many things these past 7 months. I guess one thing that I have learned (and continue to learn) is that the Lord is good, and that "good" is not defined by my skewed worldly idea of good, but by God's "good". It's been a rough road thus far, and there were times where I found myself very weak, and tempted to long for "a better life". I guess it's not necessarily a bad thing to want better things in life, or want to get to a better place, but if we long for that "better life" in such a way that we are discontent with the current situation, then it's as if we're doubting the goodness and sovereignty of God.

I was talking to a friend, and he was kind enough to remind me and encourage me with the greatest example, Christ Himself. He pointed back to the time when Jesus was praying in the garden of Gethsemane before He was arrested, and my friend reminded me that in Jesus' prayer, He prayed that God would "take the cup" (of wrath) from him, but only that the will of the Father would be done. The whole wrath of God was about to be poured out on the Son of God! It makes sense that Jesus would pray that, but it's crazy how Jesus affirmed that it was ultimately God's will that was good, and that above all, He desired in humble obedience that God's will would be done. And as we all know, God did NOT "take the cup" from Him. God poured His wrath on Christ as He submitted willingly to the will of God so that the gospel would be fulfilled! After my friend reminded me of that, I could say no more. I mean, I know that I am not the only one experiencing tough trials, but I am so comforted to know that my own Savior bore the greatest trial to fulfill God's purpose in the gospel. What more could I possibly want? How dare I even for a second, wish for some idea of a "seemingly better" life, when I can learn and experience more of God's goodness and faithfulness right now? Foolish being I am.

It's been a tough 7 months, and I've never been more and more challenged to make Christ a priority in EVERY aspect of my life. God definitely knows how to hit us in the right places in bringing these trials. He really knows our every need. The crazy part is, is that it's not in spite of us that He disciplines us, but it's all for our good. I obviously am a finite human being, and I can't know all the purposes of these trials right now, but it's definitely been pretty darn sweet to be refreshed by the gospel, and having nothing to lean on except for God.

I'm glad that I'm not ultimately in charge of my life, and that God is fully in control. :)

Wow, I never really meant for this post to be that long....

Time for bed! Yay for Mondays at work! Have a great week everybody... :)